Well, I literally have not had time to scratch my bottom for like the last 10 days! It's all a bit of a blur to be honest but anyway, things have however unfolded beautifully and i suppose as things should.....
First things first welcome Tilly!!! Come on! She is clearly the cutest thing EVER!! The story is that I became increasingly obsessed with spending time with a dog, my mother was not quick enough to surrogate one for me, the choccy lab owners too slow to lend me theirs......and then my lovely friend pointed out that I hade been given money by a couple of extremely kind hearted people to basically start fulfilling my buscket list so why not just get a puppy!!! These photos are taken within 24 hours of that conversation! YAY!!
Tilly has MASSIVELY improved my quality of life, I was previously finding it hard to get up before lunch time as I would wake up, remember what was occuring in life and just think sod it and go back to sleep.......now I wake to this little bundle of fox like fun and I am up and out on the beach!
We have had lots of visitors and socialising this past week, it's been my darling's 40th, loads of fun but exhausting! And I have ended the week with a chest infection...dont know why I have been so reluctant to go to GP and get antibugs after the myriad of pharmacuticals I have ingested the past few months but anyhow I conceded yesterday and after 24 hours feel loads better.
Its hard to know though how to be, on the one hand its like piss off everyone just let me have a cold like a normal person, except a) dont get colds etc just get big shit like cancer and b) OMG am I normal person or are all the lung toxic chemo drugs I have had ensured that any infection will turn into pneumonia and actually kill me...........anyway I think I am fine.
Am definately caught between being reckless (ooooh wore no sun protection today) attitude of stuff it - its not going to kill me! On the other hand needing to be in optimum health to feel good for as long as poss...........hmmmm maybe 10%/90% Is good enough??.
Well the universe has intervened and I am booked onto an 11 day yoga retreat called embracing life and death starts 10th august, looks right up me street......and another wonderful mate has paid for it (am surrounded by soo much love, eg this ,plus cards, books, flowers, dvds, paintings, yummy e mails, wonderful thoughts it goes on.......)
Namaste
Sim
