All good

The glumness didn't last thank goodness! My son's celebration ceremony went well, I am so proud of him.....and it turns out his friends don't think I am at all embaressing so it made him feel better too. He jammily appears to have landed the coolest job ever thanks to a great friend of mine, and spent the afternoon yesterday out on a boat helping out with wakeboarding! I watched him walking off down the road today to catch the train and he is such a different kid to a year ago, he's ace, I am so happy.

Busy weekend socially with lots of nice food, drinks, chats and dancing. Again so grateful for my ace friends and good times. Feeling well physically and mentally.

Quite a quiet week ahead, scan results and plan thursday. Probably go to London Saturday back Monday then Wednesday is hospital time. Starting to think about what to take with me, my little brother has lots of films and comedy for me, a friend is lending me a box set of 'cold feet' which will see me through a few days, mum is insisting I get into crosswords hmmmm but I draw the line at jigsaw puzzles! I have an unstocked mini bar for things I may fancy, might treat myself to a Roberts digital radio and maybe a 3D nintendo jobbie?? I might just ask to be sedated for 4 weeks actually!

I think I am getting better at this whole thing, seriously, an attitude of acceptance has made it so much easier to get through. I really thought after my 6 months of chemo in NZ I would never ever go through any more treatment, it was so awful. Now physically this is comparable but psychologically with the support through the Drs, Nurses, Auxillary Nurses, Counsellor, IV access specialist, Alternative Therapists, Financial advice, Wig technician......and then friends, family, my boss, work colleagues.....I feel I am in a massive safety net and I can't fall through any holes!! And consequently my husband can stay my husband and not my case worker!! I need to acknowledge here that my work colleagues in NZ became my friends and my family when I was ill and did everything and anything that they could and were with me every step of the way. I will never forget the massive acts of kindness that they showed me during that time and I couldn't have got through it without them. I guess the difference is here I trust that my care is coordinated and planned and people are on top of it, something unfortunately I didn't have last time. But also there is a difference in me, I am taking this on with more guts because I want to get through to the other side - there's still so much more fun to have! It's all good!