Phew...better

Phew, I am feeling better! Actually more than better I am feeling pretty dam good. Wondering whether I might actually be a manic depressive as there is not much middle ground with me. But hey, if I am that's probably not too much of an issue in the scheme of things?

As planned I have had my hair cut, I like it. It would look better if I wasn't so lardy but I am fantasising that after my stem cell transplant I will emerge from hospital at my ideal weight and then when hair grows back I will be an actual goddess. I know it's terribly un PC for me to entertain such thoughts but I can't help it! Hair still dropping but is just slow and steady and is thick enough not to notice for a bit.

I am gutted though, despite having been here before. I know it will grow back, and I do quite like having short hair so probably by xmas I will feel 'normal' again. But in between I know that I won't feel like being out and about socialising and stuff so no salsa, no roller discos :( We have a high school reunion in September so I am  hoping hair will stay intact until then. I wish I could get over the shallowness and vanity and just embrace it as a temporary event and not feel like hiding away, but I am just not there yet. I will be out of action anyway because of low blood counts so I am grateful that this will all coincide with autumn and winter. It's all a small price to pay for my life I know! But that doesn't mean I have to like it!

Today I write from my 'office' - oh yeah that's right now I am reborn as a wannabe novelist I have transformed the spare bedroom in to office / meditation room / bedroom. I have moved the desk and printer in here, I have purchased a big flip chart and pens for brainstorming, Exciting times! Now I just have to reset the body clock to be productive before ten o' clock at night....hmmmm. 

Oh and I lied! The other day I wrote that I had about 20,000 words of my book done, no - I was confused. I do have about 20 pages worth, but that's only 7000 ish words so I was tripping there thinking 20,000. Still, it is flowing quite well so fingers crossed that I can keep it up.

Haven't actually managed to go for a run yet, but I have been thinking about running a lot so pretty much all over it! 

That's all for now, 

xxxxx